As my mom mentioned, last night was the jazz camp’s jam session, at the increasingly illustrious Monterey Live. I had never been to one of the jam sessions in the past, and besides wanting to lend my voice and ears to the evening, I also wanted to see the club. It turned out to be a great idea. The people there turned out to be everyone from enthusiastic beginners to long-time professionals, but they were all united by a shared love of the art.
I walked in and was immediately greeted by Rob, with a delighted “Finally! A vocalist!”. As I got farther and farther into the club, more and more people came up, saying hello and expressing similar thoughts. The fear that had prevented me from participating in the past–that I would be an unwelcome guest in a world that can casually talk about B flat Dorian mode and complicated-sounding chord progressions–began to dissipate. I still wanted to get situated before actually singing, so I watched a wide variety of performances, from Davis’s “So What” to the funk “Watermelon Man” to the standard “The Lady Is a Tramp”. Eventually, though, I picked a tune and got up the nerve to perform myself; it took a fair amount of prodding from my mom, a few of her friends, and a few of mine.
I walked on stage and stood there for a few minutes while the wonderful bassist (and person) Zach Parkes finished copying the changes from my fakebook. As I stood rather awkwardly, Corey Watkins asked if he could sit in, and I felt hugely relieved. He is an amazing saxophonist, and just the fact that he wanted to play with me made me feel so much more comfortable. Along with Eddie Mendenhall on piano and Dylan Aiello on drums, I was under excellent care.
We played “Embraceable You” as a slow swing, and rarely–if ever–has a song come so easily to me. I really felt as if I could do this forever, and, I have to say, I’d like to. I was much more confident than I’ve been before, and I could tell the difference in my sound as well as my presence. Someone even asked me afterwards if I perform regularly at Monterey Live.
I loved the whole event. It has made me feel a lot better about myself and my abilities to perform without getting paralyzed by fear.
Here’s hoping it carries on to tomorrow night!


